It seems as if time is just flying by. I have tried to sit down and write something for several days now. It seems as if there is always something to do or someone to take care of. The problem with twins is you never get the full opportunity to take advantage of naps. By the time you get both of them down, you may have a few minutes before one wakes up, and they never take long naps on the same day. The nights have gotten a little better, but it never fails you think things are turning around and then the next night is awful. Lilly has started to get a tooth and makes her very figitity at night. Alex is doing better, but we are having to let him cry for a period. It seems like clockwork that he wakes up around 4:30 am. If we go get him, that's it, he's up for the morning. We have started to let him cry and eventually he will put himself back to sleep. I feel bad because Julian never cried himself to sleep. I haven't figured out if we are doing things a little different because we have more than 1 or if we have twins. Things haven't gotten better yet with the babies, in fact I believe it is even harder now than when they were younger. As babies you just had to feed them and put them to bed, now they are getting a little older and more aware of what they want and they can make it very clear what they want. It's harder to entertain and make both happy, especially when they both want mommy. Hopefully it will get easier soon. I just wish I can be the hands on mom I was with Julian with the twins and give them the attention they deserve as well.

Julian got a baseball tee for Christmas and he is really good. T- ball starts soon, and I think we found something that he really enjoys. We have set it up in the basement (since it is so cold here) and we go down every night and he loves hitting the ball, and I am so pleased that he is having fun doing it. I will be happy if this is a sport he will like since I played growing up. We are also still trying to figure out how to keep fish alive and take care of a bunny. Julian first thought the fish were doing tricks when they died, now he has figured out the death thing.

I did manage to get away last weekend for a little pampering of myself. My feet needed some serious attention, and a manicure and pedicure was wonderful. A life of a stay at home mom is so not glamourous and it is all about your kids. I wouldn't trade being home with them for anything, I think they gain so much from having me here, but it is nice every once in awhile to make myself look pretty. Julian asked me what that red stuff was on my nails. He's used to seeing me in mommy gear. He asked me the other day how old I was going to be on my birthday and I told him, he asked if that came before 100. Makes me feel kind of old. But I couldn't be happier with my life as I turn another year older. I have 3 beautiful children and I am able to stay home and take care of them. My only thing I wish I could change is where we live. (I am sorry to our family that lives in PA, but this is not my favorite place to live). I would give anything to move to SC again. The people here are just not that friendly at all. At least in Canada we had good friends to make living apart from our family more bearable.

nice holiday

Well, alot has happened since I posted last time. It has been so nice the past 2 weeks having Chris home and family in town for the holidays and helping with Julian and the babies. I'm a little sad that now things are back to "normal".

The babies are doing great. They are mobile now, which makes it a little harder. It's time to start baby proofing the house. We've ordered baby gates so that we can start to keep them in one spot. They had their 9 month check up right before Christmas and are doing great. The doctor was impressed with how well they are doing developmentally. They aren't "delayed" at all to adjust for their prematurity. The doctor also wasn't worried at all about Lillian's weight. He said she is just small, nothing wrong with her, just small. They give preemies 2 yrs to "catch up " to full term babies weight. I don't know if she will catch up or always be small. She isn't that fond of eating as usual, but doing good with her formula, so that's a start. She acts interested in eating real people food. So I hope when she's actually big enough she will want to eat real food. She weighed 14. 3 lbs at 9 months, and Alex weighed 18.11 lbs at 9 months. He is definately a different story when it comes to eating. He still loves his bottles and will eat most things you put in his mouth. Hopefully that will continue. He has really taken off these last 2 wks. He figured he had to catch up with his sister. If he would just sleep better at night, life would be better.

Julian is doing great. He has really loved having so much company lately. More people means some extra TLC to Julian. He is such a trooper with the babies, he deserves it. He had a great Christmas, and got most of his list from Santa. We have several new additions to the family. Julian got a bunny and some fish for Christmas. More things to feed and take care of. My parents took him to buy his fish and he was so funny when they got home and 1 had already died. He said he was just doing a trick and he had rolled over. He is so cute. Later he agreed with us that he was dead. I wonder how many animals this animal lover will have one day.

The babies had a good christmas. It was probably like any other day to them, with more stuff on the ground to try to put in their mouth. Next year will be so much fun, when they get a better understanding of what is going on.

What a Year

I was just sitting her thinking of last Christmas and everything that has happened to this Christmas. Last Christmas we were with family in South Carolina and Georgia enjoying a warm break from Canada. I was finally pregnant with our 2 precious babies after years of infertility, countless doctor's appts, numerous and costly procedures, many heartaches, and a very emotional experience. We had no idea at the time what this year was going to bring last Christmas. Shortly after we found out that Lilly had stopped growing and was in danger. We turned our worlds upside down to do whatever we needed to do to ensure the pregnancy went as long as possible to give BOTH babies the best outcome possible. With the help of our doctors in Connecticut, we made it to 32 wks, and had 2 beautiful babies. We did have a long road after they were born, and they both faced many ups and downs, especially Alex. But they proved to be strong, and came home after 7 wks. Then Chris had interviewed for a new job, so that we could move closer to family and back to the US. We then moved our new family of 5 to Pennsylvania. Things have "calmed" down a little since we moved in, and we are starting to getting into a rhythm of having 3 children and mostly on our own. We love it when our moms have time to lend us a helping hand. We welcome the extra hands.

The babies are doing great, and Lilly is finally starting to eat a little better. Julian is growing into such a bright little boy. He makes me smile and laugh daily. we couldn't be more blessed this christmas to enjoy our family to what is has become this year. I can't wait to see Julian experience Christmas again this year. I also can't wait to see the babies experience their first Christmas!

I look forward to what the next year has in store for us as well. This past year was difficult but brought many blessings.

Well, another weekend is over and time to start the new week. I really hate when sunday is over, especially when Chris is going out of town. I made it this past week by myself, Chris had a meeting in Bridgewater with late dinners and early starts. He was here, but not here. I did have a nice treat from a visit from my parents on their way to South Carolina/Georgia for the christmas holiday. It was so nice to have some extra hands for the night and early morning. Julian was thrilled to see them, and I was sad to see them go. We look forward to seeing them again on their way home.

This past week, Julian enjoyed the left over snow, and we even got a few more inches Tuesday night before it started to rain. One day they had a snow delay at school, which really shortens a half day kindergarten, so we called it a "rest day". Julian like that. It was funny having a snow delay, after being in Canada where they never shortened school because of the snow. I think I drove Julian to school in blizzard conditions.

Alex has cut his second tooth, and is doing great eating. I am thankful I have at least one good eater in the house. One child I won't have to worry about eating. Lilly still has her good days and bad days eating. And when she doesn't want to eat, it's not going to happen. She is really taking off on crawling. She is really fast, and you have to watch her every second. I've weighed her lately and I think weight isn't gaining as fast because she is such an active child.

I've done a lot of online shopping and have gotten away a couple of times to do some christmas shopping. A few more things, and I think I'm done. Then, I just have to find time to do some wrapping.

well, I'm just going to pray i make it through another week.

I did find some time this week to do my christmas cards, which I should get soon and send out. I'll show you my pictures on the card, but you will see them again. I think they turned out pretty good, especially if you were here and heard the background noise going on.

more snow day pics

First snow in PA

Today we had our first snowfall. Julian has had so much fun playing outside. It has reminded me so much of our time in Canada. I had to go to Target today to get him a sled so he could go down the hill in the backyard. He and Chris were having a ball, and Duke was enjoying chasing them down the hill. They even built a snowman in the front yard. It is times like this when I am glad that we have taken advantage of the moves for Chris and have gotten to experience things we wouldn't have gotten to if we had stayed in South Carolina. ( Don't get me wrong, I would still move back in a heartbeat) We will enjoy these times and look back and cherish these memories one day.

We have decorated for Christmas, and have started the "Santa" buying. I have a feeling Christmas will be here before we know it.

I forgot to mention also that Alex has finally cut his first tooth. He wasn't very comfortable during that but hopefully the others won't be as painful. (Wishful thinking on my part)

Lilly's follow with GI

Friday, Lilly had her f/u appt with our GI doctor. She weighs 13 lb 11 oz. She gained on avg 19 gm/day over the last 7 wks. (15-30 gm/day is where they want her). Not as great as the last visit, but she is much more mobile and active now to burn calories, but they are extremely happy with her progress. Developmentally she is doing great. Weight for her height she is in the 25%. We still have better eating days than others, but overall I think she's doing good for my little 2 lb baby at birth. We are going to keep things the same, make no med changes and they want to see her back at her birthday. Can't believe they will be 1 before I know it. The year is flying by. It's been a busy, hard at times, year. But, I can't imagine my life any other way. I look at my 3 children and think how lucky I am to have each one of them. They are all so special, and I just melt when they smile at me.